1a04 girls + keith HAHA

we shall let the pictures do the talking today

as you can see, we rarely can take normal photos. HAHA. there's lots more retarded ones in my camera. really.

i think i need assurance.

i need to be assured many many times. i just need to feel peace within me. gosh.

i don't know what's wrong with me this time.

oh well. i went for volleyball today. it's so fun i tell you. but i had to miss tennis for volleyball. not that bad. it was fun and the coach's funny. oh yah. the dance people called me up and told me to go for trials on friday. COOOL. at least got steph and ter. its better if you know someone, really (=. i think it's confirmed that i'll be joing some sports cca, cos i just want to sweat it all out. also, i think it'll be quite cool huh, if i could vent my anger on it. c'mon, it's volleyball. just whack. don't bother aiming.

many people, or should i say, girls are joining tennis cos there's one cute guy in the cca. HAHA like wth la. i didnt spot any today. until asli pointed him out. ok la. he looks like one of the lt in NCC. still. gerard way is HOT. ok, that's sidetracking. but it's the truth!. like what kj said, gerard looked damn HOT in the "I Don't Love You" mtv. there were so many times that the camera was just focusing on him. i LUB it. the "Famous Last Words" mtv, gerard let everything go. it's COOLNESS. i think he's hot. NO, he IS hot. i don't even have to think about it. yes, that's right.

OH GOSH OH GOSH, I'VE JUST RECEIVED A PHONECALL! OH GOSH OH GOSH OH GOSH!. OH MY GOSH.

I'M SELECTED FOR TOUCH RUGBY BAYBEH! TEMPTED TO TOUCH, TEMPTED TO TOUCH! HAHAHAHA. im soooo HAPPY! really.

hazicko! hot lalat coming i tell you. if i accept that is (= BUT WALAO! i though i would have flunked the trial or something cos i pulled a muscle during lunch while playing bbaLL. SO COOOL.

i think im gonna faint. HAHA.

yao kong plays guzheng and alicia just told me he's gonna join chinese dance. HAHAHA. ok joke, ok, joke. he's in NCC. stylo mylo.

wrong

i took 854 to school on a saturday when i was suppose to go for work.

i thought it was a weekday. when i took out my phone to check time, i realise it was 9am and it was the 24th. walao. im suppose to go for work, not school and im even dressed in work clothing. can't stand it. im losing it. HAHA. no la. oh yah, and by the time, i was already at eunos link.

anyhoo hows, i met up with the boys today. awww, i seriously think i miss them ALOT. school's starting for them, and i guess, no doubt, we'll stray apart from one another. i hope we don't cos i love them to bits. really. c'mon. 7 guys and 2 short girls.

EH. HEADLINES HEADLINES, i grew taller! yay yay. i thought that maybe the teacher had parallex error or something cos she's kinda not tall. HAHA. but eh hey. mathew said i've grew taller.! how cool is that?! although bren didnt say anything about my height when i told him i felt taller, i knew he wanted to say,"yes nette, you've grown taller. very much taller." i could feel it!!

HAHAHAHA. oh gosh, brennon is so gonna pluck off my hair when he sees me the next time. (=

i love my black hair

really, i do.

(= till then.

gerard way is hot hot hot! hiak

GATSBY GATSBY!

LOL! (=

it's freezing cold in lectures.

im gonna bring sweater. HAHA (=

Because my heart is tired. From wanting to believe and from always being disappointed.

oh man, i'm tanned. HAHA. cos i swim swam swum today! (=

but aiyerr, i'm tanned. tsk. nvm. it'll go away. haha.

soon i hope, SOON.

aiya! it will right. sickening. the sun so hot. still i swim swam swum. but hey, it was fun. although i and soyah were talking most of the time, i still swim around, jump around. fly here and there. not bad la.

OKAY. piccies ((=

spasticness! i know, im influential. HAHAHA


I LOVE EVERYONE! (=

maybe not. HAHAHA.

gosh.

OH OH OH OH! HOW COULD I EVEN FORGET!

the ever first pics to be posted up on blogger with ME in BLACK HAIR.

black, baby, black (=

沉默是因为包容

i don't feel like talking. but im feeling worse as the clock strikes by. so i figured that some exercise on the vocals might help. but i think i'm wrong again.

with regards to certain stuffs, i think i'm feeling way way much better than i felt last year. maybe perhaps i know that this time it's not my fault. although it wasn't really because of me all the while, but still ,i was the one that got him mad. so, i somehow felt that the strained friendship between us was originated by me. but at the end of last year. everything was in place, everything was back to normal and everything was way better. it's like he sorted things out in my life just by re-appearing.

but now.. oh well. i can't really depend that much on a promise he made, right? afterall, action speaks louder than words. heh.

still, i'm happy. really (=

we lost the championship of the challenge quest to west. many of us cried. but east will be back to win it next year. just you wait.

when you're emo, you shouldn't talk to an emo person. you'll be emomomo. really.

hmmm

a couple of bad things happened today. hur

i got a ride from peintiong on his bike. everything went smoothly and we were talking and laughing. suddenly, there was a stationary motorbike parked at the side of the pavement. peintiong went fairly near the bike and my knee got scraped by some stupid part of the motorbike. the first layer of the skin is hanging loosely, very loosely. well, you can literally see the flesh. but no blood. okay. maybe just a teeny bit of blood and much plasma. HAH.

after all the fuss over the scraped knee, we continued the journey. and again, my other knee got banged on the bus stop's chair. HAHA. peintiong ar! too near the chair. but this time round, no wounds, just a patch of blue black. than i decided to walk limp all the way. but kind junhong offered his bike since he's going home and his house is just across the road.HAHA (=

THEN, at jannie's house we were preparing for the steamboat tomorrow, so i assigned myself to cut the honeydew. accidentally, i cut my finger. my stupid wife screamed all the way to the room, broadcasting to the boys, who were watching soccer that "nette nette cut her hand!". all came in the kitchen to see me on the floor, laughing my guts out. HAHAHA. i don't know why. but yes, it's a wrong time to laugh. HAHA.

bahh.

so,

• i scraped my knee
• i scraped my knee again
• i accidentally cut my hand.
• my ez link ran out of money

HAHA. what the hell. nontheless, today was fun and fun!

on a brighter note, i dyed my hair black today! WHOOO.

AND I LOVE IT! (=

and and and, i wore IJ uniform! (= thanks to huixin that is. ALSO! hazicko is back for KL, although he's hurt and everything. aiya. im physically hurt together gether with you ar hazicko!

anyway, i cycled from bedok to tampines and to tampines mall than back to tampines. HAHAHA. my butt hurts like nothing. LOL

OH YES, how could i forget. tmr's the day! (= oil splattering session with the gang. HAH perfecto.

i think im gonna adopt the policy of isolation very, very soon.

hah.

lynette, lynette

the mahjong madness people

LOOK AT THIS CRAZY BUNCH OF PEOPLE! hahaha. im at gua's house right now and mathew just arrived. anyway, weechew, junhong, jannie and pseng are playing mahjong, mathew come and kaypoh kaypoh around. HAHAHA. oh well, i'm a good girl, i don't participate in illegal activites. =D you know, like mahjong. HAHAHA. joking okay. don't cry.

anyway, i;ve been reading up on one of friend's blog and i found it to be quite inspirational. okay. i know it's seldom to see inspiring blogs, especially from people around such age(17). usually, for guys, they MIGHT be talking about girls, online games and whatevers. Girls would probably talk about guys, latest korean/taiwan/jap drama series and the 'in' music. no doubt, this person talks about all these too, but it's the perspective this guy sees life and things. he sees it in a pretty much different way from most people. let's say you suffer a setback, you'll probably be depress or probably too devastated to do anything for a moment, but he's different. he goes to war before he's even recovered and surprisingly, he'll win the war. he accepts both bad and good things. as if he was following the quote. "if life gives you lemon, make lemonade out of it," truely enough, though he's not older by me in terms of years, i really admire his strength and courage to move on and do his best in everything he does. in real life this person is ordinary. not THAT good looking, but in a way, he has this personality that makes many people attracted to him regardless if you're the same sex or not. it's just that you want to know him more and talk to him more.

at first, i thought it was just me. but after awhile, many people talked to me about him and shared the same feelings with me. ahh. i think it's the aura he secretes out.HAHA SECRETE.

okay, i think i've missed out the important point. bahh, the guys are terribly noisy here. any case, he's really a nice person to talk to and everything.

i'm leaving my workplace soon. i'm so gonna miss sooo many people there. only the kawaii nehzxzx people please, not the obasans. or the chefs (=.

let's skip the emo part la eh. my stupid wife is here to look at my post. HAHAHA. you'll shall read it when i go home okay. HAHAHA

OKAY~! now weechew also here. BAHH. hahaha.

mathew: "here very sian leh"
weechew:"let's have sex ar mathew."
someone:"BANG AH!!!"

HAHAHA. gay gay. like what they say, so yangjun

OKAY. it's lame iknow. HAHAHA.

so long (=

i think super skinny people with thick hair and scratches his leg while talk to students are horrible disgusting. they ought to be ostracized. not cos of their looks, but mroe of character.

WHO THE HELL TALKS ABOUT MARRIAGE, BOYFRIENDS & DIVORCE FOR SUBJECT COMBINATIONS?!?!?!

that skinny alien over there. OMG, he just suck lah. im disgusted. he is just so revolting. yuck yuck yuck! i can't stand being near him, i'm already feeling disgusted by breathing the same air as him. WHAT IF IM BREATHING IN AIR HE BREATHED OUT!?

OMG, i should just die. no wonder there's like a foul smell everywhere he goes. YUCK YUCK YUCK! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

i tell you. im super disgusted. luckily i met him before lunch, if not, i'm wasting money although im contributing to the fertilising part.

okay, im going cycling before studying math. HAHAHA. (=

it's like as if something's missing. something's lacking but i don't know what is it. i think i've went through this millionates of times cos i thought that by typing it down, the feeling would probably just fade away. but i was wrong. very wrong.

infact, the feeling haunts me most of the time.

nandeska,

what's wrong with me?

im feeling emoo.

i shouldn't have went.

i shouldn't have. i don't know why but it seems that everytime i see you or something that's yours, it will somehow hurt me. everytime. i feel like telling you all these. but than again, that's not me. if i were to tell you all these, i wouldn't be feeling so much pain right now. i would have probably given up. i would probably have felt way better right now.

i want to erase the memories i had with you. but the walk to srjc is quite a distance and i'll keep thinking about such stuffs. but then again, thinking is kinda redundant, it won't really help. no, it won't help at all.

but in anycase, you've changed tremendously. i preferred the old you. but than again, at times, your old self comes out and makes me confuse. the warmer side of you. i wish i could really say, "i don't like you now" but under certain circumstances, its very hard. maybe you were pretending, maybe you're not that nice afterall. maybe you're just being a flirt.

maybe, i'm wrong.

the pain is so deep. so so deep.

im doing it, again.

从来没爱过， 所以爱错。

srjc orientation

today was fun. but i dont wanna go into details. hahaha.

i want to type about something else.

我喜歡我們之間的關係，
好朋友。
因為這樣，感覺上好像是分不開的男女朋友。
但是...

KAYSIAO LAR!

okay.

i lost it.

I WANT TO SCREAM
&SCREAM
&SCREAM
&SCREAM
&SCREAM
&SCREAM
&SCREAM

OUT LOUD!!!!!!

SO LOUD UNTIL SA WILL ROCK.

SO LOUD UNTIL MY VOICEBOX BURST AND I DON'T HAVE TO TALK AGAIN.

SO LOUD UNTIL MIRROR CRACKS

LYNETTE, YOU SO FREAKING DUMB AND STUPID, CAN'T YOU JUST BE POSITIVE?

BITCH.

IM FEELING SO FREAKING FRUSTRATED.

ARGH.

好了，够了。
让我把这结束掉。
让我把这些悲哀和痛苦都抛出窗外
我还是得活下去
如果我后再见到他，
最少，他不会在我最弱破时看到我

im back from campfeast! fun

let me see, the cadets described alot about me on the appraisal. there were words like,"cute","shweetzxz" etc. but hey, at first, they called me ma'am, than, they called me 'mom', THAN, THEY CALLED ME MAID. HAHAHAHA. walao. cannot make it, i laugh non stop. okay la, rann said i was the mother chicken. MY PC HOR, hahaha. funny crap la he

anyway, i met sooo many new people! people like brendon! i met him through an incident. we were having ice breaking session, so all of us, including pc/apc were sitting in a circle. skali brendon came, and he shouted, "non-muslim raise yur hands!" as i was sitting on the floor, i looked up to him and asked him, "do i need to raise up?" than he hollered at me, "you muslim or non muslim, non muslim of course raise up la!!" so i just kept quiet and rasie my hand. than they kept counting and i kept raising. apparently there was something wrong with the total strength. so i stood up and went to the OIC, than brendon went, "EH! you ma'am ar?! i thought you cadet! no wonder count strength wrongly."

WALAO! all the clts there laugh like hell.

BEN NAI NAI, A CADET!

talking about it, i miss being a cadet.

fish la

serangoon jc, here i come (=

tampines jc, wait for me ar.

i shall call this post, 'a random post'

alot of people are quitting their jobs at courts megastore. all my kawan-kawan quitting lar! kawan-kawan as in people i've met there.

first, it was farhan, than ariff, than now that bugger, than the on top one, now he also! and her and her! and if she quits, the other he will quit also! than there will be left with no one!

well apparently if those few are going, i won't be there either what! wah. than liddat i can spend my week ends with my friends! and sirhan can stop saying that im always busy during sats&suns! hahaha.

some full timers gets on my nerves. really. irritating. they think that they're big and way more experienced than us cos they're FULL TIMERS. eh, please ar. don't come telling me you've eaten more salt than we've eaten rice.

PLEASE!

okay, i wanna sleep. tmr, ill be at HQ ALR!

BAH BAH BLACK SHEEP.

this is my priority

the agency doesn't allow me to take off on sunday. and if i were to take off on sunday, i can't work on saturday also. than i can't get money to buy my stuffs!

than like that, i'll miss my briefing lah! how to be a APC. people will LAUGH. argh.

i think im not strong willed enough. i told my wife that no matter how, ill be back to watch the tv series, but i just missed half of it yesterday cos i hung out amd was watching letters from IWO JIMA. and i though i prioritise that FIRST. HAHA. but come to think of it, it's comical of me. hoho.

im gonna rattle on nothing, so if you don't like it, leave.

THE WEATHER IS SO COOLLLDDD! i like~! hahaha. luckily i didnt went out today. if not, i'll probably be freezing again. HAHA.

seriously, i miss malaysia.. nono, melaka. I MISS THERE LA. i miss feeding the chickens regardless if the babi utan is there or not. i miss my grandma calling me to feed the chickens, i miss the dog at there very badly. i miss my kiddo cousins there. i miss my aunties.

oh yah. talking about cousins. that day, 3 malay boys came over to my grandma house cos they were my cousin friends. EH HEY. they look like some singaporean guys. the FAMILIARANCE! tak boleh angkat ar! all 3 have very nice smile. im sure my cousin is in love with 1 of them. anyway, 1 of them was staring at me for so long, cos i was their maid, had to clear the cups and everything. he stared, and stared and stared. so i stared back. at first, i gave him a smile. and when he kept staring back, with a stupid grin on his face, i got a little weird. HAHA. this is the funny part. skali, he came up to me and said this, "toilet mane ar?"

i laughed! and my cousin laughed and laughed non stop. DAMN HILARIOUS LA. i pointed to the direction of the toilet and said,"rmber to flush, thanks ar"

HAHAHA. funny crap la he.

okay, that was random. can't stand it.

i need to pack my bags. im leaving!

forever!

and forever ends on tuesday! HAHA

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TAJUDDIN!

hope you get lots of black nail polish girls or black nail polish with nail protecter and more talent in nail art! also! more pink for you! HAHA. (=

since it's his birthday, i shall quote him.

Live Your Dance, Dance Your Life.

AC Dance, FOREVER (=

kan chiong spider

i've been thinking alot lately. nono, i've always been thinking. just that recently, it's ALOT of thinking being done in my brain. i think i have to keep myself occupied, so i won't be thinking about so much things. i think i think too much until i get way way paranoid, for the littlest things. bah.

the train ride both to and fro orchard was paralysing. i kept thinking about stuffs. alot of 'what if's' were in my mind when a certain topic caught up. then, i'll get more paranoid. which kinda sucks, cos the kan chiong spider illness will be back, like what bren always describe me, kan chiong spider.

somemore with the type of song i was hearing in mp3, i think i would have gotten crazy if the mrt was emtpy la. but luckily, got 1 bangla sit beside me and was talking so loud until i could hear him with my headphones on. everyone was practically staring at him.

and so, i met the gang at tm courts. while the boys were having their breaks. and than i went to orchard to meet george and sirhan. THE WEATHER WAS FREEZING. i tell you. and they made me watch movie, "Letters From IWO JIMA." it's basically war, on the japanese point of view, a few sad scenes and some, quite retarded la.but the ending wasn't good, quite abrupt. i couldnt really concentrate on the movie cos the guys beside me were kind of sadistic, they were laughing when someone got burnt to death. and the weather was FREEZING, once again im saying, so i couldnt really sit still.

watching sirhan walking with his injured right thigh makes me and george laugh la. the way he walks, according to george, 'macam cat walk'. HAHA. cannot make it la those 2.

oh, and on my way home, there's this couple at my house void deck, making out.

they can kiss anywhere and anytime.

OKAY!. i need to find disposable underwears. got camp! bahh.

soon! (=